Keeping Score

It is 1 am and I cannot sleep. I know there is a reason for this. I believe this is a time that the Lord wants me to share what He’s been doing in my life, so here I am writing this blog when I should probably be sleeping. I pray that the Lord can use this post to encourage you, strengthen you, and reveal Himself to you. I pray that the Lord can use me, give me the words to say, and that He can receive ALL the glory.

I used to think I was a good person. I volunteered, went to church, didn’t party, drink, or do any “bad” things. I did well in school, had good friends, and tried to have it all together. God has changed my view of myself.

I am not a good person. So who am I?

By myself I am selfish. I am prideful. I am sinful. I am hopeless. I am jealous. I am self serving. I am bitter. I am lost. And I am doomed.

In Christ I am a child of the King. I am saved. I am redeemed. I am spotless. I am forgiven. I am hopeful. I am joyful. I am serving Christ. I am humble. I have found the way. And I have received the greatest gift of all.

For the longest time, I believed I was this “good person”. The Lord has been teaching me that all these “good” things do not add up to anything. Yes, it is important to spend time serving other people and His kingdom, participate in healthy activities, and to be responsible with school, but those are the little things. I realized what I was doing-keeping score.

Every time I did something “good” I would put a check on my “scoreboard”. I kept track of all the good things I did. I let them define me and I was happy to. But then God showed me all the selfishness I was storing up.

I have been experiencing a lot of growth this summer. It has been hard at times, but the Lord is surely changing me. I have realized that in Christ I have far more valuable and important qualities than by myself. It’s hard to take in at times but our God is a patient God. 

Take time today to ask the Lord to reveal these ugly qualities that often disguise themselves in our hearts. Ask Him to forgive you, remove them, and to replace them with Him. Then you will be whole.

Happy Sunday-Have a wonderful day worshiping the Lord and lifting His name on high.

With Blessings,

Heather