Getting Ready: Emotions, Anxiety, and So Much More

This week has been so crazy. I've been getting ready for finals and getting ready to move out/say goodbyes-the first one seems like nothing compared to the second one. I have been so blessed this semester. I cannot even put it into words. It's been so heavy on my heart, especially this week. I would be lying if I said I wasn't excited for finals to be over, but only for the tests. Not for the whole saying goodbye to all my friends and not coming back to Northwestern part; it's not going to be fun. I remember the first day, meeting my roommates, my orientation group, all the sessions, etc. It was so fun yet so overwhelming.  I formed amazing friendships in the first 5 days of orientation; friends that have changed me, prayed with me, and have had crazy moments with.

I never expected that I would have to say goodbye to them so soon though. I have been finding myself in tears a lot, trying to prepare myself for next Wednesday morning when I have to say goodbye. I don't feel ready. It doesn't help that I am a super emotional person as well, it just makes it harder. I am also scared. School is going to be different: new people, different atmosphere, different friends, etc. I don't transition into things very well, so I'm feeling a lot of anxiety and stress. I am working on giving it all to God, but it's difficult. But God has blessed me with a job. I am going to be a School Age Leader at the YMCA-hanging out with elementary age kids before and after school. I am excited to have this opportunity, but it's another thing I have to get used to and transition into. I have no idea what to expect for next semester, but I know it's in His hands. I already see little parts of His purpose shining through this, and it will be amazing to see the picture as a whole when He reveals it to me. Ready or not, next Wednesday is coming; not exactly looking forward to it, but God will help me through it.

With Blessings,

              Heather