His Strength, Not My Own...

These past couple of days have been a roller coaster of feelings. Having to tell everyone that I am leaving Northwestern was super hard; it was not something I wanted to do. Overall, I have had so much support from my friends. Everyone has been great, and have told me that they are praying for me as I make this transition. It's so hard knowing I am going to have to leave my friends and this wonderful place, but I am taking this one day at a time.  A lot of the comments have made me cry; they have been so genuine and thoughtful, and I am so thankful that God surrounded me with these amazing people. People have complimented me on how strong I am for doing this, but I'm not. It's all God. He is the only one giving me the strength to do this. I honestly don't know how I am going to do this, but I know God will give me the strength, especially as it gets closer to the end of the semester. I have spent a lot of time crying. Even talking about with others makes me tear up, and I know when it gets closer, there will be a lot more tears. I know God has a purpose in this, and He has definitely given me a peace in my heart, but at the same time, it is super hard. I know I have to follow His call, no matter how hard it will be, because He knows what is the best for me (Romans 8:28). In church the other day, during worship, we were singing a song called "None but Jesus". I learned this song about 5 years ago, but I never realized the words in one of the verses:

"In the chaos in confusing

 I know You're sovereign still

 In the moment of my weakness

 You give me grace to do Your will

 When you call I won't delay

 This my song through all my days"

When I sang the line "In the moment of my weakness You give me strength to do Your will", I was overwhelmed. That line completely described how I am feeling-I do feel weak, but I know God is giving me the strength to do His will. Wow. God is so good at reminding us that He is always with us, and this reminded me He is giving  me all the strength. I know everyday will become harder and harder, but I know God will continue to give me the strength, even when I'm at my weakest.

With Blessings,

           Heather