Missing Out

These past two weeks have not been easy. Getting adjusted to my new school and working 22 hours a week has been a challenge, but I am slowly transitioning. Most days I feel like I have no energy whatsoever; I have reached my limit. On top of that, I have been missing Northwestern so much. Tonight as I was laying in my bed, I looked at my wall full of 30 pictures-all from NWC, and before I knew it, tears were streaming down my cheeks. All of the pictures are full of fun memories, and honestly, I really miss those days. Being in Fargo hasn't been necessarily bad, but it hasn't been the best either. I have enjoyed reconnecting with old friends and spending time here, but I miss the times at NWC. Lately I have been asking God to show me His purpose; why did He send me here and why am I missing out on Northwestern? My first semester was amazing-so many blessed friendships, fun adventures, and growth in God. I lived on a BEAUTIFUL campus on a breath taking lake, yet had a huge city at my fingertips.

Thus says the LORD,

your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel:

“I am the LORD your God,

who teaches you to profit,

who leads you in the way you should go.

-Isaiah 48:17 

Then the Levites, Jeshua, Kadmiel, Bani, Hashabneiah, Sherebiah, Hodiah, Shebaniah, and Pethahiah, said, “Stand up and bless the LORD your God from everlasting to everlasting. Blessed be your glorious name, which is exalted above all blessing and praise.

-Nehemiah 9:5

I don't know about you, but I do not like missing out on things. And part of me knows I am missing out on Northwestern for the next three years, and that is one reason making this transition difficult. I had so many adventures during my first semester and if I would of still been at NWC, I could of had so many more. I miss so many things about Northwestern-the people, community, campus, chapel, profs, dorms, green hall, hanging in the stud, the island, Lake Johanna, Faith Baptist Church, the Billy, and so much more. It's really hard knowing I traded all of that in for what I have now-MSUM. I don't hate MSUM, but it's just a school to me-nothing more. To me, Northwestern was so much more than a school, it was a place I called home, and I believe that's why I miss it so much. I wish I could be at NWC right now, but God has different plans, and I let Him make the decisions around here.

With Blessings,

             Heather