Over the past 18 years of my life, Fargo has always been considered my home. I have always loved Fargo. A lot of people hate it and I can't understand why. It's beautiful, just the right size, and it's home. When I decided to go to college outside of Fargo (gasp!), I knew it wasn't going to be an easy transition. Leaving was difficult, especially after being at camp for the entire summer, but I was excited. When I arrived at Northwestern, it felt like home. As the weeks went by, everything felt perfect. I knew this was where I was meant to be. Everything was in place and I was happy-very happy.
But then something happened. God told me this wasn't where He wanted me for the next four years. It was a difficult time for me to listen to Him and go where He was calling me. That place was Fargo.
Since I love Fargo so much, you would think it was an easy transition, but that is incorrect. Coming back to Fargo was hard. It was nice to be back, but I didn't feel like I was home. Living in the place I called home for 18 years and not feeling like it was home-weirdest feeling ever.
These last four months have been a roller coaster of emotions for me. I don't go a day without thinking about Northwestern. MSUM has been okay. It's definitely not Northwestern. Most of the time I do not like that I am going to MSUM, but I am working on giving it a fair chance.
Last weekend I had the opportunity to go and visit my friends at Northwestern. As the trip got closer, my excitement grew. I could not wait. As we arrived on campus I was so happy. Here I was. The last time I left Northwestern I had tears strolling down my cheeks and was in a very difficult situation, but now I was here and it was a happy occasion. It did feel different though. I felt like a guest. Friends were paying for my meals, I didn't has a room key, and I wasn't attending classes. It was weird and a little overwhelming, but I am glad I experience it.
Throughout this trip I learned a lot. I realized MSUM is my home. Northwestern is not. That's REALLY hard to say too. Northwestern was my home for a semester, but now MSUM is. I have never experienced that feeling. I have had a love/hate relationship with MSUM up to this trip, and now I feel like I can move on. This was the piece I needed to move on and accept where I am.
God knows exactly where we are supposed to be. Every little detail of our lives is in His control. I sometimes forget that and start to freak out. God may not always reveal His purpose to us; we sometimes have to wait. It's all in His timing and control. God has placed me at MSUM for many reasons, some I already know, others I do not. It's not up to me to try to figure it out either. He has blessed me so much in my time here and I know it will only get better.
I may not know what God has planned for me tomorrow, next month, or even next year, but I know who I follow: a God who will never leave me, always loves me, and works everything for my good. Thank you Lord.
With Blessings,
Heather
Saturday, March 31, 2012
Monday, March 12, 2012
The Bachelor: Searching for Love in the Wrong Places
Part of me is ashamed/embarrassed to admit this, but I watch the show "The Bachelor" on ABC. Although I do want to make it VERY clear that I DO NOT agree with the show and what it portrays. It makes me so sad knowing these women are willing to sacrifice their careers and lives for a guy who probably won't be worth it. Honestly, that is showing little self-respect. I understand they are trying to find "true love", but I don't think surrounding yourself with 20 other jealous women will help you fall in love. It creates unwanted pressure, stress, and a lot of cat fights.
These women are so in love with falling in love that they are willing to lay everything aside-including their self respect. They need a wake up call. The guy you are "dating" (and I use that word lightly) is also dating many other women. How are you okay with that? Hello?!! That's called cheating. I don't care if it's a show; all the intentions, temptation, and proof is there to consider and qualify this as cheating. America is so sick and twisted. I don't get it.
Like I mentioned earlier, I do enjoy watching this show because it is interesting to watch one guy "try" (but will never be successful in) understand 20 women. A guy cannot even understand ONE woman, let alone 20. I find myself laughing at many parts of this show at the ignorance and selfishness of the chosen guy. But of course, this guy can do whatever he wants with these girls, but it's not considered wrong or hurtful because it's television. He can go skinny dipping with one of the girls and that's seen as okay. No, it's not. That is so disrespectful to the other women and shows the desperation in each of their "love lives".
With all this said, I know I would never ever go on a show like this. It completely crashes with my beliefs and morals as a follower of Christ. I don't need a fancy TV show to find love, because I've already found it. God is all the love I need. And if He has a guy out there for me, He will bring him to me-I won't need to search for him. These girls on this show our looking for this "ultimate longing"; something they've been searching for their entire life. But in all reality, they are not going to find it. No guy will ever completely satisfy you, only the love of Christ can.
With Blessings,
Heather
These women are so in love with falling in love that they are willing to lay everything aside-including their self respect. They need a wake up call. The guy you are "dating" (and I use that word lightly) is also dating many other women. How are you okay with that? Hello?!! That's called cheating. I don't care if it's a show; all the intentions, temptation, and proof is there to consider and qualify this as cheating. America is so sick and twisted. I don't get it.
Like I mentioned earlier, I do enjoy watching this show because it is interesting to watch one guy "try" (but will never be successful in) understand 20 women. A guy cannot even understand ONE woman, let alone 20. I find myself laughing at many parts of this show at the ignorance and selfishness of the chosen guy. But of course, this guy can do whatever he wants with these girls, but it's not considered wrong or hurtful because it's television. He can go skinny dipping with one of the girls and that's seen as okay. No, it's not. That is so disrespectful to the other women and shows the desperation in each of their "love lives".
With all this said, I know I would never ever go on a show like this. It completely crashes with my beliefs and morals as a follower of Christ. I don't need a fancy TV show to find love, because I've already found it. God is all the love I need. And if He has a guy out there for me, He will bring him to me-I won't need to search for him. These girls on this show our looking for this "ultimate longing"; something they've been searching for their entire life. But in all reality, they are not going to find it. No guy will ever completely satisfy you, only the love of Christ can.
With Blessings,
Heather
Sunday, March 11, 2012
Confessions of a Cookie Supremacist
Cookie Supremacists. Yep, that's me. Well, according to my friend Chrissy ;) I might as well tell you the story: At Northwestern, they have thee best cookies in the Billy. At the coffee shop, they have these ginormous double chocolate chip cookies and they are to die for. After I fell in love with these cookies, it became a daily ritual to check and see if they had these cookies. Sometimes they did, but most of the time they did not. Chrissy suggested I get a different kind of cookie, and I said no. She then proceeded to call me a "Cookie Supremacist" for the remainder of the semester. And I definitely would not argue with her. We always ate lunch together, and of course, there I am discussing my cookie of the day. Either it would be a really good cookie, or it was not up to par. The end :)
So all of this ties into baking. I have been using the same recipe for years now, but I'm not satisfied with it. So I decided to do some searching on Pinterest and google, and found a recipe that claimed to be chewy and delicious. I made these cookies last night, but of course, being the "Cookie Supremacist" I am, I did not approve. They were soft after baking, but the taste was missing. There was no "pow"and they were too plain. I would rate them a 6 out of 10. So here I am again, searching for that cookie that will satisfy my taste buds. I'm hoping to find it soon, but until then, I will keep on searching and trying different recipes.
So if you have any recipes that you love, pass them on! I love trying new recipes and I'm sure my friends and family won't mind "testing" them for me.
With Blessings,
Heather
So all of this ties into baking. I have been using the same recipe for years now, but I'm not satisfied with it. So I decided to do some searching on Pinterest and google, and found a recipe that claimed to be chewy and delicious. I made these cookies last night, but of course, being the "Cookie Supremacist" I am, I did not approve. They were soft after baking, but the taste was missing. There was no "pow"and they were too plain. I would rate them a 6 out of 10. So here I am again, searching for that cookie that will satisfy my taste buds. I'm hoping to find it soon, but until then, I will keep on searching and trying different recipes.
So if you have any recipes that you love, pass them on! I love trying new recipes and I'm sure my friends and family won't mind "testing" them for me.
With Blessings,
Heather
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