Struggles (In Singleness)

We all have our struggles. Struggles for joy, contentment, or peace. Lately, I have been faced with a new struggle. I have been content about this situation, but now I am feeling the pains of this struggle. So what is my struggle?

Contentment in my singleness.

I have enjoyed be single for many reasons and have always felt like it was the right stage for me during different seasons of my life. I have felt contentment and joy, knowing I was waiting for the Lord to orchestrate the relationship of my future husband and I. A couple years ago, I read a book called “Sacred Singleness” by Leslie Ludy. This book spoke to me in so many ways and helped me to see my singleness as a blessing and not a burden. I encourage all my friends to read this book because it has been such an encouragement to me.

Every night, I pray for my future husband. I also enjoy writing to him. It may seem like a weird concept, but through all the prayers and letters, I have felt this connection to him. But I don’t know who he is. It’s hard to understand but I feel it. Praying for him has become something very important to me because I know every single person needs prayers. I pray for strength in hard times, purity, growth in the Lord, and that his friendships and relationships would be glorifying to the Lord. I also pray that if he does not know the Lord yet, that he would be convicted and know this never-ending love. I want a Christ centered relationship and what better way than to start it out with prayer years before our relationship even begins.

Although this has been a struggle for me, I cling to the promise of Romans 8:28. This verse has been such a rock for me through everything in life I’ve experienced. So I rest in the comfort of knowing that God has provided this struggle and this season of my life for MY good. Through my singleness, I have been able to develop a relationship with the Lord and focus on Him. I know the Lord is preparing me for my future husband and is also preparing my future husband for me. It is encouraging to know that this is a time of growth that will impact any future relationships I may have.

The Lord knows the inward desires of our hearts. I trust in His faithfulness and timing, knowing He has it all under control. This season of my life has a purpose. A purpose of growth-spiritually and personally. I know someday it is going to be so worth the waiting and getting to walk down the aisle to my future husband. To go before God and our friends and family to vow our faithfulness to each other and the Lord. What a beautiful picture of the love of Christ and His church it will be!

With Blessings,

Heather